Im sorry. There, its out there, even I can fuck it up sometimes!
Ive been told quite a bit recently that "I flirted with you at the party, but you seemed uninterested". I swear that Ive very rarely intended to turn someone away so fast. Im SHY!!
Seriously, its true. STOP LAUGHIN!!! I am for real. Stop laughin and just read damn it. So, yes, I'm shy. People flirt with me all the time, and I clam up like virgin. I also rarely have the courage to take the initiative first to start talking to someone unless we've met before. Im quiet until you get to know me, Im observant, but sometimes dont make the connection that the flirt is more than just a flirt. I have a male friend that I talk to all the time. I will tell him about something that happened when I was out and about and he will say... "OMG, you totatlly missed that he was wanting to fuck you"!! And yep, I fucking missed the hints.
Makin googly eyes at me and smiling, might get you a smile in return, but I still wont have the guts to go to you and start a conversation. I saw several men at the party (and a few women) that I was very hot and horny for. Not that I would have played at the party, but a nice conversation, make out session, some groping and then exchange of numbers for a private date later would have been absofuckinglutely appreciated!!
So please, the next time you see me at a party, for fucks sake, approach me if you are interested. Sometimes you might even have to be a bit blunt. I forget sometimes that people would really truly wanna saddle me up and try to tame me. But please... have a few lines of conversation. Dont just walk up and have the first words outta your mouth be "wanna fuck" lol. Chat a bit, flirt a bit, If I let you get more than one kiss or grope in, then you know Im interested lol. After some kissing or groping, THEN you can ask "wanna fuck?" Most likely I definately WILL wanna fuck by that point!
Ok, so there. Thats my apology for coming across as cold and uninterested. I promise that if you can get past all my little flaws and character defects, I melt nicely. VERY nicely!!!